My Sweet Man and I live on a three acre parcel of land that is half rural, half city, which basically means that we pay city taxes but receive none of the city benefits (like water, sewer, and fast internet speeds). Recently, our internet provider offered us a new package that would increase our internet speed from practically non-existent to over 25kbps.
Excited, I signed up, and after a two week trial period, called my provider to cancel the old package. The faster speed is so beautiful, I’m willing to shell out the extra cash to move into the twenty-first century.
The next morning, my Sweet Man asks if my email is working. No, I reply, no worries. They’re probably performing maintenance on their email system. But two hours later, there’s still no email access.
At this point, the brain cells begin to fire and my Zen-ness begins to fall apart.
I contact my internet provider and discover our email addresses were attached to our old internet package. Everything has been deleted.
Now, I’d like to say “my bad”. Maybe I should have done more homework. Except that we’ve changed internet packages before without ever encountering this problem.
By the end of the day, after numerous phone calls, we still have no email and I’m in a very unZen-like state. I’m yelling at the poor worker on the other end of the phone and I can’t seem to stop myself. I’m out of control, beyond help, and my poor Sweet Man leaves the house every time I pick up the phone.
And then, between calls, I start to cry.
Why am I so upset? It’s only email. It’s not like we use our email to save the world.
And that’s when I begin to rediscover my Zen-like state and finally see the lesson I need to learn.
Trust that everything happens for a reason, even when we’re not wise enough to see the reason right away.
Believing this is on my list for 2018. Learn to trust. Learn to let go.
As I write this, I’m still without email. I’ve discovered I kind of like it. Hmmmm, maybe being without is part of my lesson too.
NOTE: If you wish to read more on the true meaning of the word ZEN, then click here.
So now tell me in the comments…have you ever been without email? If so, did you secretly enjoy it or did you feel like you’d just lost a hugely important part of your life?